And to the grieving family who weeps for loved ones gone

The pain of separation consumes another home

But on the waves of sorrow, You walk with perfect ease

Comforter is who the whole world needs

You are Comforter, that’s who You are to me

Comforter, a name that fits so perfectly

Peace that passes all understanding

Comforter is who You are to me

song by Cece Winans – Comforter

Funny how we have ears but hardly listen. Funny how we have time but never share it. Funny how we have care but are never there. Funny how we leave each other hanging, questions unanswered.
Until the time with a loved one, we have not.

Like Job, I tried to do right as much as I could but grief came crushing down my door. I tried to keep it out. I don’t know what I should have done different.

Would a few extra prayers have offered a few extra breaths? Would a few more hugs assured her of my love? I’m emotionally in limbo. Caught in a web of “what should I feel that is the right way to feel?” Are the tears enough? Are the questions enough? Whom shall I ask? Shall I ask my God?

Am I entitled an answer? Should I just live a life of unanswered questions and pretend as though my whole life hasn’t turned upside down? Who will love me and tolerate me and indulge me like you did?

Who will advice me, protect me, pray for me like you did? Who will trust me, cheer me, believe in me like you did?

I have lost a treasure. My mum, my heart, my best friend. She loved me more than I could ever love her. I was a selfish child but she was a selfless mother. I always took yet she was always ready to give, forgive and give love again.

Who will understand how I feel? You will have to be me to understand. Your mother has to be Maame Nkran for you to understand the depth of my loss.

Maami, will it be fair to ask you to come back to an existence that hurt you many times than you can count? No. I cannot be selfish one more time. You are in the light. The blessed glorious light of Jesus Christ. I may feel hurt by the Lord’s will, but you were His first, before you were mine.

I really can’t let you go mum, yet still I let you go. I miss you with all my heart. I miss our laughter, fights, and everything in between. Your love for music. Your love for chocolate. Your love for pizza. Your love for family.

Ask me one more time how work was and I would tell you every single detail of every second. Let us gang up on Santo one more time and be the dream team we always were.

Now I’m all alone.

I cant wait to meet you again my mother, to tell you everything I’ve experienced in your absence, every detail of every second. But until that appointed time….I will patiently wait in joyful expectation. For the time I can hold you again. I love you my only mother.

Take Your Rest.

Happy Mother’s day to all Mums! It is indeed an honorable thing.

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